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I have been saying that for the past couple years but this time I have motivation......HAWAII! Starting Monday July 26th I'm kicking my butt into shape. I hate feeling self conscious about the way my body looks. I'm 20 years old and I feel like this issue is holding me back from being a 20 year old! I go through what everyone else probably goes through which involves keeping an eating and exercising routine for a while but then skipping one day and it all falls apart. Then getting back into it seems so much more difficult.
The goal for my weight loss is not about becoming a size 2. I want some curves and to look healthy. I just want to feel comfortable with myself. I have a lot of "goal" clothes in my closet and hopfully by the end of this year those clothes will be coming off the hanger.
First off, I have to commit. I mean really really commit to the program I'm going to stick to so I wrote it on my calendar in pen which I can't erase. I have combined a lot of different exercises and most of it involves a program called Insanity. This truly insane workout is every other day while other exercises like yoga, pilate's, running and weight lifting are in between.
And second, I need to concentrate on eating healthy. I have a hard time with over eating. I swear my stomach is like a bottomless pit. I don't know how many times I've said "Only a couple of these and that's it", then ending up going back for more and more. Everything is fine in moderation and portion size. I just have to keep that in mind whenever I eat. I am also staying away from the candy and junk. One piece of dark chocolate a night is it!
I will post before and after pics once I take them. I'm excited to start and will keep posting on the progress and any new recipes or workouts I find along the way!

It's official

I got accepted to BYU Hawaii about a month ago and had been debating if I should go or not. You may be thinking what's there to debate though right?

It scares me to be away from home. I find comfort here. I fear I would miss my family too much and would not be able to survive without them. I am going to be on my own which I haven't really done before. I'm going to have to make wise decisions on my own without help from my parents. But I know if I don't go, I will regret it when I'm older. I mean how many people really get to say that they went to school in Hawaii?

I'm going for winter term in January so I have a lot of time to prepare. It's only for a semester and then I plan on coming back. It has taken me a long time to figure out what I want to major in but for now I'm majoring in International Cultural Studies. And what place is more perfect for that?

Here I come Hawaii